Sometimes, I feel that I am really hard to please. When I have stuff up to my neck, I start grumbling tat I don't have time for myself, for studies and everything. Once in a while when I get really free, I start to feel real lost and all. I don't like this feeling one teeny weeny bit.
I really don't like going home alone. The journey is long and it makes me real emo and an extra sensitive idiot. Sometime I feel like being a selfish chap and ask my friends to wait for me so we can go home together. But I know I can't.
I really really love my friends. But I know am missing out in their life and they are missing out on mine too.
I know we no longer have as much to talk about.
I know you guys find it really annoying to have to wait for me all the time.
I miss my morning talks with xin. i miss having lunches with the peeps.
I know I know I really know.
And when I finally dragged myself home, I will be so goddamnit tired that I'll get irritated over the slightest things. And I'll get into those petty quarrels with my parents. Those quarrel which I know I'll never win.
Someone told me its a phase we all have to go through when we are growing up. But how long will this takes?
AHH. today is a oh-my-god lousy day. I thought at least it will be livelier at SC room but it kinda turn out worse. Shits.
Yeahh. i know this post is real awful and emo. But my mood just swung and it reached its all time low.
Perhaps it will swing again soon, i hope:)))
My friends(((:
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